A friend Karwirwa Laura sends me posts once she writes them on my blog. She writes about spirituality. She is so passionate about the gospel and writes mostly about what Jesus sacrificed for us, the love etc.
I then get to my blog and start reading my posts. I skim through articles that I already know and I feel like I should pull them all down. I find my grammar bad, verb and tense confusion and there’s no cohesion. I wonder what I have been writing anyway. I check through my context, the idea I was really putting across and I find that it conflicts with my title. I get despaired and am about to press the trash button after selecting multiple of them when a thought strikes me, ‘What if we hated ourselves so much because of the dirt we used to play with as kids? What if we loathed that memory so much that we tore apart all our childhood photos?’
I realize that everything is growth and we should appreciate our past. We should appreciate what made us before because it acts as the cornerstone to our present. I was reading a friend’s blog and suggested to him,
‘Hey perhaps you should check the grammar in that post.’
‘No. That’s the best post ever, check the comments, you get none.’
‘I do not need comments to pass my message across. I believe I leave my audience in that awe-inspiring state that they wonder what to comment on the post. Am here to inspire and share what gets out of my chest.’
‘Good for you. Am just as comfortable with whatever state mine is. However bad which I know is.
I realize that this friend was comfortable with the bad state of his blog in which he is fully aware. I also realize that comfortable people have nothing to lose, they do not push themselves to the limits. It then comes back to me, I have a lot to lose, I have an audience to update, to motivate to give hope and inspiration and that’s why I feel that I am not good enough because I aim higher.
You feel like that David facing a Goliath? Remember that you have a big dream, a big task awaiting you. No matter the challenge, keep hope alive. Remember, so long as you are in an upward scale you will never be good enough, you will strive to be better.