This is a guest post by Johnstone Wahome.
What do you do when it doesn’t make sense? What do you do when your salvation starts feeling like a childish story? What do you do when the walls start caving in? What do you do when you lose your job and it takes forever to get another one? What do you do when someone you loved so much died or cheated on you?
What do you do? Where do you run in that time of emptiness, where?
All you can do is cry out to God and He seems so distant, or too busy to answer your prayers. It feels like you are in this all alone. With nowhere or no one to turn to.
Well, I wrote this in the midst of pain, just to be of encouragement to you.
When you give your life to Jesus, or rather when I did 🙂 I thought all was going to be alright. The peace I felt after being born again was quite overwhelming, it was literally the strongest yet wonderful thing I’ve ever experienced. Well for me it didn’t happen at the pulpit as usual, it happened on the next day. I woke up feeling fresh and new, it felt like I was born again and so close to God.
That peace, that moment is what made me never want to ever hurt God again or do something that didn’t please Him, because I didn’t want to get rid of that peace.
Well days, months and years went by. And all of a sudden I was hit with pain and heartache straight on my face. My pride, dignity, self-righteousness was taken away in a flash. It was at that moment that I realized how far I had drifted from His presence, I still felt the peace at a distance but we were not that close.
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I lost my Job, the relationship I thought I had control over (talk about head knowledge) and of course later my house was closed. I didn’t know what to do, I had no cards left to play. It was at that moment that I saw His love at work.
A friend invited me to stay with Him till I get back to my feet. Well, to be honest, I hadn’t experienced that kind of love from someone ever before. Since most people will be like, oh my house is too small, oh this oh that, honestly I was prepared to go to shags(my rural home) but that friend was like hey, you come over. All will be okay usijistress(don’t worry)
Later as I prayed to God asking Him to give me more clients or rather a job. Is when I realized that He was answering my prayers, oh boy :-). I had prayed in 2017 and specifically stated that “I needed men to walk with me, I needed real brothers to go to war with me”. Well what a better way to get a real brother than this 🙂
Be careful for what you pray for, it might take you through the valley of the shadow of death
Be careful for what you pray for, it might take you through the valley of the shadow of death, but He will be there with you. His rod and staff will comfort you and He will prepare a banquet for you in the midst of your enemies and pain Psalms 23:1-6
Well as days went by it didn’t get any easier physically and emotionally. But spiritually I got re-connected to my Daddy, and I found peace.
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I know whatever you are going through hurts and I might not understand it. But God does and He weeps with you. All He wants from you is that you invite Him into your mess.
He wants you to tell him how you feel, and I’m not talking about religious prayers, No!!! Talk to Him as a friend, you feel He has offended you, tell Him that. Tell Him you are tired, tell Him you can’t take it anymore, tell Him you are even starting to doubt Him, tell Him everything.
Moses did, so did Job, Peter, and Jesus. The cross was too much, He asked God to take it away from Him, but if it was His will, He was ready for it. Luke 22:42
Jesus was real with God, be real with Him too, even as all of this doesn’t make sense. You will get through it, we will get through this. You are not alone, their people who have gone through what you are going through right now, and are ready and willing to help and walk with you. Jesus being one of them.
Reach out, comment below, get connected. We are here for each other.
Be blessed.