This is a guest post by Brenda Nthigai.
Brenda Kathomi happens to be a lover of life. She has in many occasions found herself at the top of her lungs trying to make jokes just to make her friends laugh. The very same friends would attest to the fact that she almost never lacks words if a comment is needed on a certain discussio. She has had to make her peace with the fact that she has an immense persona which she thanks God for.
With that in mind, when I, Brenda, think about my Kkrew Bible Study story, I honestly get overwhelmed with a sense of silence that leaves my train of thought in utmost gratitude; one that even in this piece, I could never really do justice in explaining.
In the year 2015, I was at that point in my life where I felt a deep sense of wanting to belong. My heart had this huge hole that no number of friends and life loving personality seemed to fill. I remember that I would always have a beaming face when I’m with my friends but I would still feel so empty as soon as I would be in the safety of my own company.
I was one of those submarine Christians, those who would blurt of how they know the Lord as their personal savior. 2015 was my third year of proclaiming how much Christ saved me and how of a staunch believer I was. It is safe to say that I didn’t know Him based on what I know now.
I came to realize that even with a loud persona, My God, My Dad (as I like to call Him) always had/has this way of silencing all the voices in my head and getting me to a still moment where I would hear Him calling. He would tell me quite bluntly that I should earnestly seek His Kingdom and put effort in my salvation journey. Being the finite human I am, I would shove that voice at the back of my head and trudge the path using my own understanding and knowledge.
On a certain Tuesday night, a cousin of mine mentioned to me that she had the pleasure of being a first time visitor of KKrew Bible Study. She noted that she had never been so challenged and amazed at the worship and preaching at the place. You could quite frankly insert that phrase of “gerra outta here!!” in mere disbelief. To spur my curiosity, the next Tuesday was ours to attend.
The first thing that lingered on my mind that Tuesday as I stood in that hall was, ‘she failed to mention how many people attend.’ The auditorium was practically in full capacity and more people chose stand up rather than miss what was to unfold. This made me yearn for what was to go down that evening.
You know how you listen to Elevation worship or Hillsong and you feel like the flood gates of Heaven are quite literally opening? And you get so filled with the spirit that there is no more masking before the Lord and all you can do is break down and fall to your knees to His glory? Yes, that is exactly how the praise and worship team worshipped, till date if I might add.
I remember telling my cousin that I felt like I was attending a Hillsong concert. The disbelief was unreal at this point. The energy that was in the auditorium, all for the glory and honor of our Lord was amazing.
It was simply amazing for me to realize that there are people out here with the same hunger for God. I realized that there was no need for me to be ashamed or to try and act as an undercover believer. I could be free to love and worship Christ. I could lift up my hands without worrying of what the next person thought of me. I felt accepted in my Father’s Kingdom and completely unashamed.
For so long I had been looking for a fellowship that would teach me to seek the Kingdom of God. Even as a believer, not one taught me of the prosperity gospel. What good is there in possessing wordly things and completely missing the point? For the first time, I genuinely asked myself if I would still seek His Kingdom even without the second part of Matthew 6:33? Without a doubt, the answer was yes and so my journey began at Kkrew Bible Study.
At some point, I even let go of the job I had because the working hours couldn’t allow me to get time to attend the Bible Study. I knew that it wasn’t in vain and God was still on the throne. He has been faithful for He provided another job with flexible Bible Study hours. What I have learnt from Kkrew Bible Study and the transformation that has been made to me mentally is something that I can never pay them back for. They accepted me just as Jesus said, come as you are.
To be very honest, what I apply in my life lately, may it be in understanding the Kingdom of God, relationships, with my friends and family; I have learnt from the different teachers of the word through KKrew Bible Study. Kkrew has challenged me to see beyond borders, we not only learn the word, but we are taught to live it and do this life together.
Thank you KKrew, for such a loving platform that helps me to connect to God. You are most welcomed to join us. We fellowship eveey Tuesday at Nairobi Cinema as from 5.30pm.