My 2015 has been like my heartbeat, pounding close to my soul on every throb. Both a rough ride and a smooth sail it’s been. I have seen the beams of the warm summer moon reflect to my soul and the rays of the desert sun scorch my trying self. I have been both weary and fiery. I have been both bold and weak but none the seasons wore me into painful sores of despair and hopelessness.
Quitting my Job
Well it started by me quitting my tiring job in March. A job that saw me to many bed rests than work days. Walking out the front door with no handover whatsoever rendered me into conflict with my employer. I ran into a carnage, an abyss of dark days of joblessness and desperation.
What I learned: No matter how much you may want to quit and exit from a place, leave as graciously and humbly as you came. I thank God that we are still great pals with my previous employer.
A different move
I was tired with Nairobi and went home to run the business I ran in 2010. I operated a Cyber Café that flourished and blossomed. I was up to the task having renewed skills and experience. I did my preparations, redesigned my website, looked for clientele and even got myself a room to work in. Awaiting funds to boost my business, I was pressured to apply for a job I refused months ago. It was the place my cousin used to work. I did, and for the first time I prayed. I made a deep prayer to God, telling him that I never wanted the job, at all. I begged for His will to be done but I insisted that His will should not let be me in Nairobi.
What I learned: You don’t tell God what to do.
His Will
His will was done. I presented my bodied self to the interview. I was the last person to apply. I did not have suits like the rest, I never had the good papers like the rest and all along in the office I was whispering a prayer to God telling Him that I never wanted this job and I was able to do by my own at my home place. Like Jonah I landed into this job, though not the best I was selected to head this beautiful title, The Head of IT; Marketing & Design Executive.
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What I learned: God doesn’t call the qualified, he qualifies the called.
The Losses
Work was not taking me bad. I was doing well. I got new clothes, a good house and smiles made my face until when I lost my dad in October 8th and a best friend who brought me to Christ on October 9th. Her name was Bianca.
I was bereft, down struck and crashed into this darkness pit that left me strolling into a confused state of mind. I mourned. I prayed. I got better.
What I learned: The unexpected will happen, the only thing you have to do is pray for strength and respect God’s will.
The Trouble
I got back to work and problems started streaming in. Having too much at my desk and too much to handle I got stressed. My boss on the other hand started barking and threatening. I couldn’t handle all these. My health started deteriorating. I prayed, I got deeper into prayer than never before but things got worse. I quit my job. I wrote a letter giving myself “Emergency Bed Rest” and placed it at my bosses’ desk. I went home and 5 days later I wrote them mail that I wanted to quit. It was never replied to.
I stayed home for about 24days, knowing that I have got no job and a friend of mine whose trumpet I broke, threatened to come to my house with the authorities to pick my piano and guitar. I thought God had forgotten me. I thought of quitting on salvation. I prayed for strength and wisdom. I handed out my piano and guitar and was even more bereft given that music kept me from thinking of my troubles and tribulations. Then I came across this…
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1 Peter 1:6-7 (NIV)
6 In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7 These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.
What I learned: No matter the challenge; keep hope alive. No matter the trial, be faithful delve more into prayer.
The Comeback
I took heart and remained faithful and one day as I was busy in my hustle I get this message from my boss asking me if I was okay health-wise and if I could make it on Friday for a presentation about a system they wanted to procure. I replied saying that I wanted to resign. What followed were numerous phone calls pleading why I chose so. We scheduled a meeting where we would talk about it. I realized that the mail was not delivered to them. I went to double check that they were not at my outbox.
We scheduled the meeting but bounced, she wasn’t around. I wrote my resignation letter and placed on her desk. Guys, if God destines you for His purpose, you will not escape his will. What followed were calls from my mum and cousin asking me to go back to work as our MD called them pleading that they can’t afford to lose me. They said that they will do no matter what it takes to get me back.
My MD called me telling me that they cannot accept my resignation and we schedule yet another meeting. This time round it was successful. I speak my mind, I talk of how I hated the barking and stressful statements of intimidation from her and beg her to let me go. I wondered why they needed me so badly and had just worked there for 4 months.
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She begged me to stay, she deeply apologized and permitted me storm out of her office whenever she started barking. She told me to text her whenever she said of things that were out of line and promised to watch herself. She told me to give her the chance to change her character and become a working progress. I then knew that this was the favor that I was asking God all along in prayer. I got back to work.
I got my salary; a salary I never worked for. The days were not subtracted from my leave days and I even got to love my work much more than before. I thanked God for his manifestation.
What I learned: Trust in the Lord, trust in His ways for in due time you will stand the test of time.
My 2015 was rough and tough but God came to my rescue. He manifested when I least expected. 2016 is here and I don’t pray for lighter rains, I pray for positive challenges that will see me grow into a great warrior and follower of Christ.
What do you pray for? Wealth? Lighter Rain?
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