This is a guest post by Nash.
Sometimes it’s not about the healing but it’s healer that we actually need. Do we trust God in everything including saving us from the situation we are in?
As Christians, at times we lose faith in God and the situation becomes so hopeless that we don’t see Him working to make life better for us. The Bible says that He has good plans for us. This is regardless of whatever situation we are in. Sickness does really affects us but God still remains the Healer.His name is Jehovah – Rapha: the lord who heals as affirmed when Jane shares her testimony. She was on wheel chair but now she can comfortably walk,how?
“My name is Jane. God saved me from the shackles of death. The girl you see here was in a wheel chair a month ago. I used crutches . I could not use my legs way up from my waist, but today I can jump up and down like a toddler in glee. I can do most things I couldn’t do. On October 16th last year, I lost my boyfriend whom I had dated for 3 years. A week later I got sick. I guess it was because I wasn’t taking good care of myself. My ulcers worsened. I had ulcers since I was 9 years old. I also had bacteria in my intestines and when I went to hospital, I was told that my intestines had grown 2 centimetres larger. Normal centimetres are usually 20 centimetres large. They were really affected by stomach acid. The ulcers started affecting part of my stomach and ribs.
Three months later I was still sick. I was on injections but I wasn’t getting better. On 7th February, 2016 I developed breathing problems. I was rushed back to the hospital. That day a miracle happened. I was examined by 2 doctors. The first doctor did an examination and said that I was supposed to undergo an operation. My brother kept me company awaiting the operation date. Something that still baffles me to date happened that until now I haven’t understood. The computer shut down. Guys with knowledge in IT (Information Technology) are aware that when you have running data, at least you have a back up. It was ironical that when the computer shut down, all my details got lost. All my laboratory results like chaff were nowhere to be seen. Another doctor came in at around 2 p.m. and performed the same tests on me all over again. She shook her head and I remember clearly what she told me, “You have severe acidity and you are dehydrated. There is nothing I can do for you. You are very lucky you didn’t go through the operation because you couldn’t have made it.” The physician also confirmed the same thing. My brother asked if there was anything that they could offer to relieve the pain. She gave me some pain killers and asked me to go home. I felt as if I was being chased away.
I was very discouraged. I started questioning God, ‘God I have served you, I have loved you, you have taken so much from me. What more will you take?’
When I went home, I was still in pain and everyone was praying. They felt that it was time to release me. I remember my brother sending his children to check if I was still awake because he couldn’t do it himself. This is because none of them wanted to be the first to receive the bad news.
That night I fell into a deep sleep. For those 3 months, I could not eat anything yet I survived. I only took half glass of water. As I was sleeping, the pain came back again. I started developing breathing problems. I had a bizzare experience. I saw myself standing next to my body. It was such an awesome experience to me because the pain was no more. I thanked God for helping me make the first step. While I was there, I could hear my sister pray from the next room. I asked God to take me back only if I had a purpose in life. God was faithful enough to take me back. I thought I would come back healed, jumping in jubilation like a young goat.
The next morning when I woke up, the pain came back. It was not only ulcers, but I had also developed back pain. By then I hadn’t realized that my legs were not working. I thought that it was because I was weak that I got to be carried around. The same week, I tried to move but I couldn’t. My sister came and helped me back to bed. I told her that I could no longer feel my legs. I was numb half way from my waist to my feet. I was taken to hospital. The doctors were surprised to see me. They thought that I was too lucky to be alive.
I was sent for an x-ray. I got the results. I was informed that my spine wasn’t properly aligned. Instead of it being curved, it was straight all the way. It was hard for me to either walk or bend. The situation got worse and I was put under physio-therapy. The same time I lost my voice and could not speak. I used to communicate via text or writing.
I had lost my faith in God. When I lost my boyfriend, I made a prayer to God. I told Him that even if He took everything from me, I would still praise Him. Even if my organs failed, I would still praise Him. On Sunday 27th March I experienced a miracle. My friends from church came to visit me. The friends left home after some time. On that same day a doctor, a friend to my brother friend came in. He was to do some research and give me the best medication. I was tired of the many check ups I had. I had already stopped taking the medication two weeks earlier. I told God that I would trust Him completely. So that night my mother took me to bed at around 1 a.m. I started developing breathing problems again and I thought it was the end for me. I found myself crying at around 2 a.m. I made a prayer and told God “If today is my day, give strength to anyone who prayed for me and my family. Whatever will happen today, be it death, may it not break anyone’s faith. May it strengthen their faith.” After making that prayer, my breath started coming back. I had already lost consciousness that healing was taking place. Actually I had not noticed that I was sitting down all that time. I was listening to ‘Met by Love by United Pursuit’. There is a place it’s sung ‘We can run straight into your arms unafraid because every time we need you we’re met by love’. I was still crying as I sung the worship song. I used to place my Bible near my bed so I took it and read Isaiah 41:13 and it says
Isaiah 41:13
13I am theLordyour God;
I strengthen you and tell you,
‘Do not be afraid; I will help you.
I surrendered everything to God. When I looked at my watch, it was already 5 a.m. I had sat from 2 a.m. to 5 a.m.
I took myself to bed and questioned on how I had done it. I thought it was a dream. My eyes were still soaked in tears. I sat down and I could now feel my legs. I wasn’t sure whether it was pain or cold since I had lost touch on my feet for a while. I walked towards the door. I didn’t know how I would explain it to my family. When I opened the door, the first person I saw was my father. I called him but he didn’t respond. I called him the second time and told him that I could walk. He broke down in tears. The last time I saw my dad cry was when my brother passed away.
For me this is a new year. God is very gracious because He healed me 3 days to my birthday. Don’t give up on God, because He will never give up on you. Seek God because when you have God, you have everything that you need. For me I realized I did not need healing, but I needed the healer.”